Humbling isn't it. Once again, I am talking about the complexity of motherhood it is my life and for many of you if you share my occupation then it is yours as well. When I was a kid I remember lying in bed at night with my twin sister and it's always like planning out what life would look like for us as adults what kind of car will the drive how many children would have our home it's our husband's I don't think in that order but I remember planning I never anticipated the complexity of Life let alone motherhood.
I think it's typical for children to assume that they know something without evidence or even experience. But what about when you're an adult I tell you if it wasn't for the Lord saying whosoever shall humble themselves and be like little children The same is greatness in the Kingdom of Heaven. I don't think I'd be able to quite grip the complexity of motherhood and without knowing everything there is to know about being a good mother then I'm setting myself up to fail if I don't humble myself and run to the Lord as a little child runs to its mother.
Today is the first day that I prayed lord please show me how to be a good mother I've prayed many prayers around motherhood for strength for patients for peace and protection, but I don't think I've ever prayed for the Lord to show me how to be a good mother not just a nice mom but a good mom. I think One of the first things the Lord spoke to me was that I have to be okay with getting it wrong because when you humble yourself you're acknowledging that you don't know everything that you don't always win you're not always patient or kind And most importantly which I believe expresses the best display of humility is to admit that you need God to be a good mother.
We have to extinguish this idea that we have to know everything and that we have to be perfect motherhood is messy and it is so complex There's so many different avenues that you're having to operate in without experience or wisdom. For most of us it's all very new every stage was experiencing something new something that's pulling something out of us that we never knew was there. Maybe it's taking something from you that you never planned on giving up maybe it's your quiet time maybe it's your rest maybe it's your self-sufficiency and independence maybe it's your compassion maybe it's your ability to nurture when you just want to scream motherhood is messy
But we must remember we are not here to do anything on our own separate from the Lord he says come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. From beginning to end the mysteries of motherhood grow in complexity I just believe that the only way to be a good mother is by keeping your heart pure and we can't do that without God the day today weight That we carry as moms Is a Burden if we don't run to the Lord's feet and lay down that weight and receive the grace that comes When you're like a little child running to its mother.
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