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The other side of my yes to God


Wow I got to say if you asked me a week ago, I'd tell you a one-sided answer and it was going to be full of justified answers and a huge number of tears and ultimately this feeling of despair.
Oh, but how merciful is the god that we serve he gave me a way out of a foolish perspective and planted me in wisdom filled truth.

I just have to lift up a hallelujah because he is so good. Let me just give you a peek into the conversation I'd have with myself concerning what the lord was and wasn't doing in my life.
Most of them where me sitting in this stuck place because in my mind if I moved forward, I'd have to give up somethings I loved, and I'd have to face some uncomfortable truths about myself and the circumstance of my life. No one like to take accountability these days and I am no different. At least a week ago I wasn't. 
 If I stayed where I was in my delusional fearful state, I'd never see all the beautiful things God wanted to do in the earth through me and I'd never receive the desires of my heart that were in the will of God.

 The lord made it clear to me after a very emotional and raw conversation I had with him pouring out my heart falling on my knees humbled by life. He made it clear that I was not operating in the will of God because I was not submitting to his ways or his.

I had to choose was I going to continue in fear or was I going to step into faith. was I going to take my foot out of the world and dive into the will of the Lord. Well i was tired of doing life without God You better believe I chose the way of the lord. 
What I have received from giving God my yes.
Is courage a real gift courage to be me standing tall on the rock of ages. I've never felt truly secure in being myself. There was always a sense of shame connected to my identity because of my past.

I don't know who this is going to free, but I had a revolution that the real reason I had trouble believing that God could forgive me was because I was too busy living day after day in the stain of my sin. It's something amazing about laying down that old life and wayward living. It gives us the confidence that even though I've made many wrong turns and bad choices. I can confidently say that I have made the most courageous decision of my life that was to lay down my life for the righteousness of God and allow the holy spirit to purify me by doing the will of God.

 So, what's on the other side of our yes to God. Freedom from the shackles that keep us in shame and guilt cycle because the truth is we hate sin, but we feel so unworthy and ultimately fearful of how our lives will change but God says come to me all who are heavy burdened, and I will give you rest. He does not expect us to be perfect.  He is what makes us worthy. He rejoices because righteousness is the way the truth and the life and we will never be made whole without him. 

So, I encourage you today if you think you are waiting on God and can't figure out why he has not yet moved think of the last thing he told you to do lay down your will for the lord's righteousness with a pure heart. The word say obedience is better than sacrifice.

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