Wow I got to say if you asked me a week ago, I'd tell you a one-sided answer and it was going to be full of justified answers and a huge number of tears and ultimately this feeling of despair. Oh, but how merciful is the god that we serve he gave me a way out of a foolish perspective and planted me in wisdom filled truth. I just have to lift up a hallelujah because he is so good. Let me just give you a peek into the conversation I'd have with myself concerning what the lord was and wasn't doing in my life. Most of them where me sitting in this stuck place because in my mind if I moved forward, I'd have to give up somethings I loved, and I'd have to face some uncomfortable truths about myself and the circumstance of my life. No one like to take accountability these days and I am no different. At least a week ago I wasn't.   If I stayed where I was in my delusional fearful state, I'd never see all the beautiful things God wanted to do in the earth through me a...

 If you are a mom or an expecting mother, then by now you have probably heard it you know what I mean "you will never be fully prepared you just learn as you go." I'd say that quote alone says it all. if you're embarking on a journey where your life experience and what you've learned before motherhood  has no bearing on how you'll find your grips when it comes to motherhood then the best thing you can do for yourself and your child is to go into it with God start your motherhood journey with the one that calls us to be fruitful and multiply we cannot do this job well without the Lord. I think the greatest thing about wisdom is that it's teachable its information gathered by somebody who usually made a mistake or have seen one made I've been on this motherhood journey for 11 years I started it Out of wedlock as a teenager and without God. The complications I experienced were many. Usually, I spare you guys the details. Today I...

 Usually when something takes our attention away from the present moment. we like to think of it as a distraction, we can easily become distracted and taken away from the very moments that are in front of us. Perhaps It's because we're either distracted by the future or the past the excitement of becoming or the fear of not going anywhere. Maybe it's the fear of repeating the patterns. Well first I'm going to tell you the single-handed reason we can't find focus and secondly, I'm going to tell you exactly how you'll benefit in the future from the decisions that you make now so let's get into it. If you haven't had a chance to read last week's blog, then you should definitely go over and check it out I'm going to piggyback a little bit off of what I said I broke down trusting God and why it was so frustrating waiting on God when you don't trust his timing. I heard the saying comparison is the thief of joy or something like that I believe i...

 WHAT WISDOM DO YOU CLING TO WHEN YOUR FRUSTRATED IN THE WAITING PLACE? when your soul is on fire for God it's so easy to find momentum to keep going while waiting on an answered prayer. Well, I get so frustrated with the stop and go. you know when you keep checking to see if God checked your box yet. Maybe you have experienced this same frustration. I had to come to grips with a very ugly truth over the weekend, but I am so Thankful because its true what they say the truth shall set you free.       God reviled to me that the reason I get frustrated in the waiting is because I didn't trust gods timing. It's not the checking to see if he has answered the prayer that is the problem  SEE I BELIEVE GOD IS EXACTLY WHO HE SAYS HE IS. I don't doubt that he is able or that he wants to bless me. God had to show me my heart and finally I understood a big part of my frustration came from my decision to rush gods timing instead of being content knowing that gods in control ...

with the culture of today you are either it or you Arnt.  I'm talking about the perfect mom culture   It's incredibly easy to feel like you are just not cutting it because you look around and everyone seems to have it together schedules, routines and the social esthetic of motherhood is perfect but in reality, motherhood is messy. It's not beautifully color coded. but it is remarkably beautiful. I'm eleven years into this mommy stuff and let me be the first to say it's always been a beautiful mess. And unfortunately, it's taken me that long to come to the realization that this mess is full of beauty. Maybe you are a little like me and had a expectation of what mom life would be like, and your world was rocked when you discovered your children and life itself care nothing about your vision or your esthetic schedule. I'll admit I was starting to think this has to be a joke and God knew I was never going to be a perfect mom so why call me to this role.  God is ...

 What do we hear all day? That's right it's mom and that's a beautiful thing. But who are you outside of parenting? This may seem like a loaded question trust me it's not. when I had my oldest child, it was easy to be me outside of just parenting.  once you start adding more children to the family you can be buried in the number of moms you hear in a day oh and don't get me started on how many times you can be called mom in an hour. ultimately this will lead to questions like who I am outside of motherhood well I remember asking myself this after my 3rd child and I didn't have an answer. I had completely stopped dreaming I didn't have any goals no ambition my aspirations were pretty much cleaning up crumbs and hoping for a nice shower uninterrupted. when it comes to identity the truth is we do have one I learned that my identity is in Christ Jesus he is the one that Gives me substance we all are searching for substance looking for it in ourselves to show up ...